Spastic Oesophagus

You find yourself in an unsatisfactory position of having gained and lost something at the same time, resulting in a deep-seated emotion that is being/has been triggered. This can be linked to suppressed emotions connected to the denial that there is still a problem to face. In turn, making you feel stagnant and/or stuck in your current circumstances and feel that making a way forward is very difficult. This, in turn, made you feel obligated (earlier on in life) to endure unfair treatment projected by influential people in your life (this will be past people), leading you to always feel as though you are constantly pulling the short end of the rope because of poor personal boundaries given to you by your prominent caregivers in your life (your parents). This has been contributed to by people later on in life taking advantage of your gentle and caring side, leading to the emotional mistreatment to take place in your life, with the reward of accepting the mistreatment of others to give the illusion that influential people did validate you from an earlier part of your life. This all links in with the anorexia you went through growing up - Eating made you feel ugly and/or unloved. Other interesting fact is, this could also be linked to your grand parent(s) going through a sexual offence, so it might be worth taking a look at that, if not already.